Sharon in Wonderland

I started to cry today. I was so close I could almost feel the warm tears running down my cheek. Then, I said why cry? I felt a temporary, fake, happiness. And then, I cried. Crying isn't something I like to do, but I've learned it's necessary. It's part of recovery. It's a part of life that will never cease to exist. I cried, but not as much as I wanted to. Just a tear or two fell upon my sweater. I have a feeling there will be more tears before I shut my eyes tonight. But, I'm okay with that. A friend once asked me, when I was in a heartbroken stance a year ago, if it had rained lately. It was November, and it hadn't rained in weeks. I replied no. He said, after the rain, you'll feel peace again. It rained shortly after he said that, and he was right. I felt better. Tears are something like rain. You always feel better after the rain or the tears. When it rains, it is because the clouds are so full they need to release. Sometimes we get so full we ...

Not in the mood to say much but, Merry Christmas to all and to all a goodnight.

This past week has been a hard one. Turns out that "cold thing" was the flu. I'm feeling better but the nasal and chest congestion is still suffocating me. Hopefully with medicince, rest, and prayer, I will recover rapidly before Christmas. I went Christmas shopping a little the other day (which is ONE reason I am sicker; being out in the cold and fanning around more or less...) and I tell you I couldn't hardly walk through the stores! I only hit three stores because I got so fed up with all the craziness. I'll have to finish up this week sometimes when all the crazies are working! I got all my Christmas cards ready to be sent out, but they've been sitting on my desk for almost a week because I haven't been near the post office. I really should stop procrastinating and mail them already. It would be strange for people to receive a card around New Year's, eh? I'm off of school until mid-January-ish. Spring semester starts back up and I couldn't...

It's funny how we meet people throughout our lives and one day think of them randomly or see them somewhere unexpected. Then there are some times when you don't ever see them ever again. We all travel places whether it be local or some distance away and there are people whom we meet at all those locations. I sometimes stop and wonder, what that person is going through? Where are they going? Why are they here at the exact same time as me? Is there a deeper reasoning as to why they are here with me? Strangers have more impact than we care to think. I could be at the grocery store and am having just a terrible day and that one stranger passes me by and smiles at me; it really makes my day. There have been so many people who I never even get their name who have changed my life. It's important to remember that someone is always watching you. That one smile or wave could brighten up their day. Such simple gestures can make people change their lives. It really blows my mind how pe...

The Intro To Your Eyes Subliminal colors fading through Finding meaning deep down is my virtue And it's you with the shimmer beyond I know nothing how to show a respond I don't think I could live without Your deepest ocean to ease my drought Falling more rapidly to the core Stumbling now upon your vast shore Trying to swim closer to your heart But through those eyes I will not depart If you only knew what they did to me You would stop the torture and just see Insanity knocking and pounding at the temple Closer now than what I wanted to gamble Driving me crazy to point of delusion Like another language, cold and so foreign Through pain and delight from all of sunlight And all of the flight abysmal to moonlight I wouldn't think of withdrawing the ending For your intro is much too founding Contact of yours to mine escape with time Mine to yours leaves nothing but a crime Never leaving capture is part of the show Please stay a while and never let go

Today is the perfect day for a perfect day! The snow on Friday was great! Of course it was wet so it didn't "stick" but as it fell down, it was amazing! I really enjoyed it! It really puts a festive trimming to Christmas this year. Maybe we'll get lucky and have snow on Christmas! In LA, it's super unpredictable when it comes to the weather. I have NEWS!!! :) If you have been reading since my beginning, which was November of last year (2008), you will remember (maybe) what guy I am about to be referring to. We were together EXACTLY this time last year. I ended the relationship because I felt I wasn't satisfied and he was working all the time and different things kept coming up. (I never use any person's real name on the web; if you ever wondered.) I never was "in love" with him, but I cared and still care for him strongly. Well, we remained very good friends and we hung out last night. He picked me up around 7 that night and we went to chaperon h...

IT'S SNOWING!!!!! IT'S REALLY SNOWING!! IN LOUISIANA! YAYAYAYAY!

Since I have been awarded so many amazing awards from many people, I wanted to make an award and pass it on the the most Wonderful blogs I have seen!! I'll begin by giving this award to the following! Please copy the picture and put it in your awards section (if you have one) and make a post passing it on to your top Wonderful blogs!!! I sent you all a comment on your most recent post letting you know! Brandi of Excess Baggage Stephanie of Dirt and Lace Fireblossom of Word Garden Shadow of 1 Door Away from Heaven Fai of Letters from a College Student Indigo of Shattered Prose Whitney of The Glamorous Life of a Housewife Tabitha of Through My Eyes Kaileigh of Sunny Side Up Chris of Nibble Me This Gin of My Own Road Christy of Less Things, Less Space...More Life! Even though I don't always comment on your blog, I am reading!!! I think these blogs are amazing and show true talent in poetry, writing, cooking, inspiration, and just living this thing we call life! Thank you for mak...

Hey guys. I started my third blog! Yay! It's definitely something special, so head on over to A Fruitful Life to start a new journey with me!