Sharon in Wonderland

The years have come and gone. Faster than I ever imagined they would. Life has thrown me good and bad. I have so much to write about. So many thoughts that have merely suffocated my mind. I've seen hell first hand. I've seen heaven first hand. Now, I'm somewhere in the middle. I'm luke warm! Not hot. Not cold. And that's the worst thing to be. Luke warm. I've changed into someone I never thought I'd be. I have a life I never thought I'd have. It's disappointing to wake up every day and know things could have been different if only I would have made the right choices. Choices. Life's all about choices. I made choices that affected my life, whether good or bad. Mostly bad. I've been trapped inside a person I don't know anymore. I see a stranger when I look in the mirror. I look back at old photos and writings. I don't know that girl anymore. My new goal? Find her again.

It matters how we feel. A second of time is nothing more than a moment of our life. A moment we will never get back. These moments I've let pass me by...these moments I've taken for granted... I'll never get them back. Those are done. What a wonderful life I've had, I only wish I'd realized it sooner. I want to call it a waste, my life thus far. I haven't accomplished much of what my destiny expects. And I find it strange how these epiphanies come from so deep in the night. I'm just one person, one soul. I can believe I am well versed in the ways, but in reality, I know nothing. It's amazingly beautiful-- the unknowing. A part of me wants to be afraid, but the other part is a warrior immersed in the glory of victory. I'm not far from average. I'm not a legacy in the making. I'm not someone everyone knows. I'm not the role model of our lives. I am Sharon Chaline. I think and I act. I love learning more about myself and my world. This life ...