Final Execution.

Things are slowly getting better. I told my parents and closest people who knew the situation about the whole ordeal with my ex the other day. I am feeling much better to be quite honest. Everyone that I spoke to about it, said it didn't have to be taken as a bad thing. This was closure for me. This is the end of the rope. I know what I don't want and what I do want. After being hurt and used and manipulated, at least now I know what I am made of. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger right?

Today was pleasant!! IT SNOWED! IT TOTALLY SNOWED! Yeah, sorry, I've never seen snow before!!!!!! It was so amazing!!! Snow in Louisiana is so uncommon. I woke up this morning, and there was snow EVERYWHERE. I ran outside and was like "holy crap this is great!" I yelled at my mom and she ran outside and I threw a snowball at her. I mean, it is what I suppose one would call, "Wet Snow" because it happened in such a southern place. It melted not long after, but that's not the point! It was so incredibly beautiful to see snow. I mean the view of the neighborhood roof tops and the grass ans sidewalks. It was ALL white! It was gorgeous.

Everything is finally situated with my classes and my job. I'm very glad. My life is finally almost where I want it to be again. I miss the old me, I've changed so much. I've come to the conclusion of what was the cause of all this. It was in fact love. My love for someone was taken completely out my mind, and at first is wasn't a bad thing, when he loved me too, but when he didn't i went AWOL. Once again, I will state, it took something dreadful to make me realize that I had to quit ruining my life over this dipshit of a man. He's not worth my time. I'll find a real man one day. I'm not looking though, I'll let God handle all that.

So, all in all, life is slowly getting better. I appreciate everything you guys do and say and mean towards me! It really does help me through the day.

"It's a new day,
oh, it's a new time
and there's a new way,
I'm gonna live my life, oh!"




Comments

Robot Nine said…
Yes the snow. I am in Houston and my 5 year old nephew called wanting to drive here from the North Lake Pontchartain area, St. Tammany Parish. I was glad to see the snow held out and he woke up to a white winter wonderland and skipped school! Check out a blog I linked to on Think Tank called Judging the Books, it's funny. Alan
December 11, 2008 at 11:18 PM
Charli Henley said…
Hey girl - I'll be back soon to read more! But I wanted you to know that I left an award for you on my blog!!

Cheers!
December 11, 2008 at 11:42 PM
Shadow said…
i'm glad to hear you chirpier! but yes, snow would do that for me too. we don't get any either, woe is me...
December 12, 2008 at 3:07 AM
Charli Henley said…
Hey - congrats on the snow! My family lives in Southeast Texas and they got snow too! Probably the first time in 20 years. It is magical, huh? up here in Boston, snow is nothing novel. So I'll have to send you some pretty pics!
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December 14, 2008 at 11:03 AM
SharoninWonderland said…
Mikey.... what the hell are you getting at here buddy???

What's up with all the comments???
December 14, 2008 at 1:44 PM
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